I'm officially a student teacher, remember growing up and having student teachers in your class and you always wanted them to go away because they didn't do things "right" like your real teacher. Well I'm the one "doing things all wrong" now. Haha. Actually as it appears, the last couple of classes I have been in have seemed to enjoy having me there so I hope this continues.
I am teaching in a first grade class which isn't a grade I ever saw myself teaching. It's fun so far but I'm starting to feel intimidated. I really like my mentor teacher and I love picking her brain in all aspects of teaching. I love the students, they make me smile at all their fun comments such as..."My Grandpa fought in the Tsunami war, he died last year when he was 82." I heard that this same student told someone else that his Grandpa fought in the civil war. They make me smile. and I get excited about their successes I see everyday.
I feel like I'm being exposed more to what it takes to be an elementary school teacher and it honestly scares me. If all teaching was was teaching this would be the greatest job in the world but I'm really worried about all the extra stuff such as the random commities you must participate in. the many protocals that need to be noted (many of which don't make sense) the way the education is turning into "memorize this becuase it will be on a test," the many required tests that leave no time for quality teaching, and the increasing workload to go along with a decreasing paycheck.
I also know that there is a ton of value in teaching and there are so many wonderful rewards I can look forward to. I love that a seven year old boy, out of nowhere asks.."you know how right now its night time on the other side of the world, I don't get that." I love that these students are curious and excited to learn and it would be my privledge to work with them but I fear I will be incapable, I fear I could fall into the trap of giving one good lesson for every 5 "know this for the test" lessons.
In August when we move back to Oregon, I hope to do some substitute teaching as far as my body let's me with my growing baby. Then, depending on our baby and Max's work situation I plan to sub for the rest of the school year and maybe apply to fulltime jobs the following school year. If Max is working as a firefighter, this is very realistic as he only works two days a week. So this is the plan thus far. Subbing can give me a better idea if this is really what I want to be doing. I sure hope it is because I have spent a lot of time in school preparing for this.
So I don't mean to sound like a downer here, I truely am happy to be teaching and I feel I get to teach in a great class, I only just worry about the teachers of the future and if I will really be able to handle it.